| Because You Are
I can't feel you like others around me.
I don't feel like kneeling or closing my eyes.
Is there something wrong with my heart that I can't see?
Or do You feel love still when nobody cries?
'Cause I know in my heart how bad I want to touch You,
You must sense this love my soul barely contains,
No lack of desire in this desert to worship,
I keep singing skyward it just never rains.
So I'll praise You, if I never feel You,
And I'll love You cause I know You're there.
And if You should choose so I'm sure one day I'll feel it,
But feeling good's never the reason I cared.
Father, I praise You because You are,
Jesus, I love You because you are,
Spirit, I worship You because You are,
And if no one can see that Your love's moving me,
I worship You still and forever will,
Because You are. * * * * * (Disclaimer: it's late, so some stuff might not make too much sense) So I'm feeling a bit melancholy. Lately I feel like I'm in a Spiritual desert. I feel like I'm so far from God, just completely isolated. I can't seem to hear His voice. Of course, it could be I'm not listening. Sometimes I have trouble with that. Or maybe I'm trying to listen, but I'm filling my life up with so much stuff that is drowning out His voice. I know I'm not consistently living my life for Him. I want what He wants for me, but I want what I want for me, and sometimes those clash. I really do want to experience intimacy with Him and to understand the purpose of the desert experiences. I'm not sure I know how to achieve it, though. I hate my plateaued spirituality. I see all these people on fire for God, who know and understand scripture, and who are real witnesses. But I don't know how to get what they have and it sucks. I love God. He does so many amazing things for me. I want to do more for Him, if that makes sense. I don't want to be comfortable anymore. But I need help. I so badly need help. |
